Hmm...

Let's say you feel like a five, yes the number. It's not about your possessions, I have no interest in that whatsoever; it's your quality as a person. It's still not clear, but bear with me. So you're a five. And you know that you are not at your full capacity. If you do all the good things that you think you should do and stop doing all the bad ones, you know that you can be a ten. And twenty is the limit of how good a person could be, beyond which is unfathomable, unimaginable, unthinkable...

And then, she enters into your life. And suddenly hundreds, thousands and millions become a possibility.

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The Cold Turkey Update: Well, it's been hard, the last five days. Really, extremely hard. Monday was, by far, the worst. I just sat on my chair, paralysed to do anything else, and fought many battles inside my head whether to stop this nonsense or not. I was loosing. So the next two days, I just walked around the streets until my feet were numb. And when I came home (maybe a different tense?), I was too tired to think about anything, which was the intention. Thursday has (had?) been a critical day, but I got through. And lastly, today was just like a normal day, which is encouraging. And I'm proud to say that I'm still holding.

Although, it looks like I'm developing quite an interest towards documentaries. For example, "How Computer Processors Work", "How to Build a Nuclear Submarine", "Japanese Bullet Train" and "Boeing 747 in D-check". This is probably the weirdest possible side effect of trying to get rid of an addiction. At least, it's educational. Well, sort of... Anyway, five past, nine to go!

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I would like to express my deepest gratitude to every single person who has visited this blog. I wasn't expecting this much visitors, to be honest. I really appreciate it, because it matters a lot. Hearing the words "I know, I understand" makes a huge difference. Imagining people saying these words makes a similar effect, as well. Hmm... Finally, special thanks for (to?) people who gave me some feedback on the blog by e-mail or by other means.

I think, that's all for now. So keep visiting, keep reading and have a lovely evening!

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