Random Thoughts

What do you do if you don't feel at home, while in fact you are at home? Where do you go? ... Imagine someone who deserves every bit of your love, and still it's not enough. You're simply incapable of loving that person as much as he/she deserves. Have you ever felt this way about someone? ... There's a wall clock in every room in my grandmother's house. Old ones... Noisy ones... Very noisy... And the house is small, so if the doors are open, you can hear the sound of each and every clock. A complete mad house... So when I stay for the night, I remove all the clocks from the walls and put them away in another room and close the door. If you think this is too much, then maybe I shouldn't tell you that I used to remove the batteries as well. I'm alone with my grandmother. She's sleeping in her room, but the door is open. Now, I just put away the clock in the room that I'm in and the one in the hall in another room. But here's the thing, ...

Why do we upset people whom we love or people who love us? ... I've been escaping from myself, I still do. There're some simple questions that I should ask to myself. Simple, but very powerful questions... One day I'll have the courage to ask those questions and give honest answers. ... If you think of someone so intensely, will they feel it? ... I am afraid to go to sleep. I need more songs in my playlist. And I think too much! That's why I don't gain any weight, even though I eat well. ... I wish you weren't...

I climbed the long stairs to the balcony and finally I was up there. I had seen the layout of the theatre on the website, so I had an idea as to whereabouts of my seat. There were only three rows in the balcony and my seat was in the last row. I walked towards my seat, but there was someone trying to get out of the row, so I started waiting. That was when I saw her. Sitting on the row in front of me and to the right was a girl of astonishing beauty. She was already looking at me. I forgot everything. Who was I? And what was I doing there? I also lost sense of time, so I don't know how long we looked at each other. Only after she turned her face away, I realized that the man I was waiting for was long gone and I was just standing there in the middle of the balcony. I sat on my seat -which was the first in the row. I looked at her again, she was sitting with some other girls, her friends maybe. I will probably sound too sentimental, but you know the feeling when you see som...

Time flies, doesn't it? Many things have happened since my last post. Before saying anything, I would like to note the following date, July 15th 2016, the day a group in the military attempted a coup in Turkey against the selected government and most fortunately failed. May they and everyone involved(!) pay for what they have done. I am not going to, however, talk about this shameful event, since I need a break from it. ... "I went on an adventure!" as Mr. Bilbo Bagging would have said. A trip to Edinburgh, Liverpool, Chester and then back to London. I absolutely loved Edinburgh from the moment I set my eyes on her. I definitely would have stayed longer, but sadly I had my return tickets booked beforehand. I got rid of my bag as soon as possible and went on a stroll in the old town. No sooner had I walked for a couple of minutes than I was welcomed by a man in traditional Scottish outfit playing bagpipes. It was my first time hearing it in real life and I...

The covers and screen protectors for technological devices cost an arm and a leg. I have always hated tech companies for this. There is no way these things cost that much to produce to justify those prices. But people spend lots of money on their phones and tablets and they don't want scratches on their screens, so they grudgingly buy those exorbitant protectors. Well, I was growing tried of this and finally decided to take a stand. I removed the screen protector from my phone and got rid of the cover. FREEDOM! At last! The difference between that old bulky phone with all those extra layers and this new phone was huge. It's now a pleasure to hold and touch. I guess it's more risky, those protectors usually do protect if you drop your phone or something. But I just be more careful about it and don't throw my phone around, which you shouldn't do anyway. It's been a while and no scratches so far and my only regret is not doing this earlier. ... Today in the...

To leave or not to leave the EU for Britain? That is the second question. The referandum was today, well, technically it was yesterday, since it's past midnight. And we will learn the result in the morning. I just wanted to have this on the blog, for the records. I'm guessing Bremain... The polls say it's fifty-fifty. But I think, some Brexit people will change their minds. We'll see. ... I'm finally getting around to writing another post. The thing is, the whole process of applying to a Master's course in Japan is having far too much effect on me than I would like to admit. I always wanted to be a person who, when he wanted something to happen, did everything he could and then relaxed. Alas! Most of the time, I don't do everything that I need to do and have to live the stress and regret of knowing that it would be my fault, should I fail in my endeavour. It's not worth it, you know. Nothing's worth this stress. Working freakishly hard and doi...

The more I feel in love, the better a person I become. I start not minding most things that I normally would; the things that cause problems, arguments and even fights. It's amazing how it changes the way I consider life. ... Lying on your right side, blinking rapidly for a minute, counting backwards from 100... These are some of the strategies for falling asleep. Unfortunately, none of them works, at least not on me. Here I lie without a trace of sleep. Maybe I should've counted forwards and imagined some sheep jumping over a fence. I've never tried it to be honest. I think I'll give that a try, but at another night. I've changed. I'm not sure if in a good way or not. I used to -and still, think that my preferences on the room in which I sleep are not the least unreasonable, despite the protests of the people I stayed with. For example, I used to prefer sleeping in a controlled environment. All the windows and doors to where I slept had to be closed...