Random Thoughts

The end of a wonderful year... I was planning to read the blog from the beginning to contemplate on the year passed and say a word or two, I couldn't. I think I'm afraid to do it, but I don't why. So, I've decided to take you to some of the places I've been this year. Here they are:  London - Sunset at the Palace of Westminster London - St. James' Park London - I really wanted to go, but the tickets were too expensive! London - Royal Albert Hall. Waiting for the musicians Edinburgh - The street above the street Edinburgh - The view from Edinburgh Castle Liverpool - My first and only Fish&Chips Chester - The lovely town of Chester Istanbul - The Maiden's Tower Istanbul - Kadikoy, Moda Japan - The mystery of tea Japan - I climb these stairs everyday Japan - From Otsu festival Japan - The bicycle park at my university Japan - This is from a shrine, don't know what it is ...

Until when can I delay that decision? Choosing is hard, because you have to give up something. If you don't chose, then you don't give up. Then there's still a chance that you'd get that thing. How foolish! By not choosing one, I lose them both. It's one of the most difficult things, to face and deal with the reality. I'll never learn that language, be among the best in my field, learn playing that instrument and so on, all at the same time. When I have a piece of free time, the number of choices I have is paralysing. And the things I have to do are overwhelming. I end up doing none of them, because I don't want to let go any of them. It's much easier to live in this delusion and to dream a day in the future where I'll have achieved all these things. That day will never come. I can't even choose coffee in the supermarket, how am I supposed to choose how to spend my time and not regret in the end? People I admire, all have some qualities tha...