Random Thoughts

Don't you love it when you see someone on the public transport trying to read someone else's newspaper on the sly? I do. It makes me laugh. All those manners... No-one wants to get caught doing it, as if it was the ultimate crime. ... It's way past midnight. The window is open. Apparently there is another one somewhere in the house, because the curtain flies frantically. And the room is a bit chilly. I was sleeping actually. I woke up, partly because of the cold and partly because the annoying sound that the curtain makes every now and then. Each time I hear it, I decide, 'alright, the next time I hear it I'll get up and close the window', and start waiting for it. But then I don't hear it. The sound stops. Just when I relieve myself of this stupid sound-hunting quest, and say to myself, 'nevermind, I'll just go to sleep', I hear the infernal sound again. And the whole process repeats. ... Why do we use the verb 'to go' for sleep?...

I think I want this blog to be good and my posts beautiful and that holds me back. You'd think that this would increase the quality of the blog, but no. I think it kills the creativity. We need more spontaneity here. Yes, that's what we need. And who needs a topic anyway? Hundreds of millions of people walk pass each other every day and they don't even look at each other's faces. I always think about some far-fetched, distopian, sci-fi type scenarios. Like you were alone on the Earth or another planet for a long long time and at last you saw this person from afar! What would your reaction be? Wouldn't you just run to him and give him a big hug? I know I would. Then why we don't feel that way about each other? Because there're people everywhere. And when we have something for a while, we tend to take it for granted. That's our nature I guess. We don't think about it, don't think how life would be if we didn't have it. So maybe all those acci...

Is it possible to feel longing for a place that you have never been to or know nothing about? Can you miss something like that? For a very long time, I don't even remember the beginning of it, I have been longing for a place or a thing or a person... I don't even know what it is. It doesn't seem plausible to me, missing something you don't know. I think you have to experience something first in order to miss it. I have some very nice memories in some places. And I feel sad when I remember those memories, because the places in my memories are far away now. And some people... When their memories suddenly decide to fill my mind, I smile involuntarily, even loudly sometimes. Then the sadness takes over. Because they are away too. And miles aren't the only distance that separates us... The happiest man has the potential to become the saddest of us all. Beyond all these, I miss something else, strongly... What have I experienced before that was so perfect, that I ...